A quick aside, I now have a Wordpress blog. It is completely off topic (as to this blog), being on negotiation. Having it will let me learn Wordpress (and I'm very open to comments and advice) and will also let me blog on a professional area that has been an interest of mine for a very long time without taking up space here.
http://srmarsh.com/ is the url for it (and adrr.com is my website covering my hobby).
For my core grief essays and background information you can visit Living which is where I wrote before I had a blog (and before there were blogs).
I had someone ask me why I lived life without food as a buffer if my emotions were so much stronger. Well, they are my emotions. More importantly, almost all of them are positive. Yes, I have some very strong grief days, and some where I am friable, but I have so many, many days where I am just so much happier and so much in love.
That was the best thing to discover, just how pleased I was with my wife, and how happy with my family, that I was feeling, but not in contact with. I'm so grateful to have those feelings in my life.
It is my life, they are my emotions and I'm grateful.