Friday, March 08, 2019

A change of pace

I think I have said what I have to say about grief, recovery and finding life again.

So, a change of pace.

I retire on March 17.  While our home will be graced by a nephew and others, Win and I will be backpacking, at least for a while. is where my future adventures are being recorded.

Since I will be backpacking I expect my religious/spiritual posts at will probably slow down as well.

Now that location was originally a WordPress blog I started just to try WordPress and never did any "real" posts.  Then I tried some various trail journal solutions, but WordPress has a great app that allows me to upload pictures and posts from my phone -- which is all I need when backpacking.

I'm taking up from where I left off at

I enjoyed using Blogger.  If I was carrying a laptop on the trail with me, I'd probably consider still using it.  But with only a phone to use as a camera and everything else, the WordPress App works so much better.

Really useful stretches for hiking:

There are some anomalies using my pre-existing WordPress blog.  My first post was dated September 27, 2005 -- and did not have any content until I updated/started using it in March of 2019.  That is why it has a comment from "Mr. WordPress" that is basically a tutorial on comments.

The url reflects a name unrelated to the blog name.  But since this is just for my personal use and for friends, it doesn't really matter.

Starting March 7, I've started blogging there about our attempts to hike the Appalachian Trail for a sixth time following my retirement.

After that I plan to do some volunteering and take some classes.

Everyone I've met on the path of loss and grief is still in my heart.  I have not forgotten.

Sunday, February 10, 2019

On hope

Borrowed from Tatiana Boshenka
Thought 1: This post reminds me of what Vaclav Havel said about hope:
. . [T]he kind of hope I often think about (especially in situations that are particularly hopeless, such as prison) I understand above all as a state of mind, not a state of the world. Either we have hope within us, or we don’t. . . . Hope is not prognostication. It is an orientation of the spirit, an orientation of the heart. It transcends the world that is immediately experienced, and is anchored somewhere beyond its horizons. . . .
I feel that its deepest roots are in the transcendental, just as the roots of human responsibility are, though of course I can’t – unlike Christians, for instance — say anything about the transcendental. . . .
“Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously headed for early success, but rather an ability to work for something because it is good, not just because it stands a chance to succeed. 
The more unpromising the situation in which we demonstrate hope, the deeper that hope is. Hope is not the same thing as optimism.
It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. In short, I think that the deepest and most important form of hope, the only one that can keep us above water and urge us to good works, and the only true source of the breathtaking dimension of the human spirit and its efforts, is something we get, as it were, from ‘elsewhere.’
It is also this hope, above all, that gives us the strength to live and continually to try new things, even in conditions that seem as hopeless as ours do, here and now.”
Disturbing the Peace, pp. 181-182

Sunday, January 13, 2019

Grief, recovery and changes

One thing that happened, each time a child died, a coping mechanism that I was using broke with the death.

I used to walk by myself to reduce stress,  I just couldn't do it until last year.  Unless someone walked with me I just couldn't do it.  I started working out with Shotokan again after Courtney died and before Robin died.  I had real problems trying to do that again, even though I loved karate.

But a couple of years ago, that finally started working for me.

Journaling is something I have been able to do again.

In many ways, it is as if in the last two-three years my life has started over.  Heck, about fourteen years ago, when I started losing weight (and could tolerate losing weight) it was obvious that things were still moving.

The recovery from grief and the broken parts of my life has been continuing and steady.

I could wish I were younger but time and age happen to us all.

I'm so grateful for my life, for my children and most of all, for my wife who has stayed with me through thick and thin.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

Backpacking shoes

I've found that I can't use zero drop (causes me knee problems, probably because of tight calves).

I've found that I need a wide toe box.

La Sportiva Wildcats.  ( )
Wide toe box ++
12mm drop
28 ounces

Vasque Breeze
35 ounces

Merrell Moab 2 ( )
33 ounces
Underfoot protection

Cascadia 13
Brooks is ever changing.
Not much in the way of reviews.
Ratings compare it to the Wildcat as not quite as good.

Stick with North Face.

Old statistics:

The Top Footwear Brands

  1. Salomon
  2. Brooks
  3. Altra
  4. Merrell
  5. Keen
  6. Vasque
  7. La Sportiva
As in years past, Salomon, Brooks, and Merrell were among the most popular footwear brands of AT long-distance hikers. Salomon was the top brand, as before, but Altra entered the running, from being worn by less than 4 percent of hikers last year, to over 12 percent this year.

Friday, April 20, 2018

Selling off a now extra tent.

Same tent I have listed at Gear Trade, discounted since if I sell direct it will have only the 3% PayPal charge.  $275.00 + $30 shipping and handling.

weight 2lb 11 ounces. Fabric Fly: 10D Nylon Ripstop 1200mm PU/SIL Fabric Canopy: 15D Nylon Knit Mesh Fabric Tent Floor: 40D Nylon Ripstop 1500mm PU Tent Capacity: 3 (2+ really) Number of Poles: 1 Number of Doors: 1 Number of Vestibules: 1 Height

Interior: 39 in / 99 cm Tent Floor Area: 39 sq ft / 3.6 sq m Tent Vestibule Area: 8 sq ft / 0.7 sq m

(I'm cribbing the description from an on-line one).

Used for three nights (including one in back yard) with a polycro footprint. Some of the original tent pegs replaced with titanium pegs (it will come with the titanium replacement pegs for the replaced pegs). We've moved to a 28 sq ft tent that is lighter now that my wife has decided that she prefers to sleep with zip together sleeping bags rather than quilts for the alternative listing with more pictures, etc.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

On Temples (a religious post)

I wrote this:

It follows the theme, set out in another's essay:

“I am saddened that President McKay felt he had been poorly prepared for his experience but encouraged by his frankness in talking about it.15 We need to do a better job, both institutionally and personally, in preparing our children, our friends, and new members to receive their endowment.”

Sunday, March 12, 2017

Lesson in church today

-Women need to be faithful to themselves.
:how do they do that?
:how do we support them in being faithful to themselves?
:how do we encourage them not to demean themselves or others?
-Find strength in God
:be ordained as was Emma Smith
:teach, write, learn, study
:women are to expound by the Spirit
-Find joy
:accept that there will be sorrow
:accept that there will be anxiety and concern
:the key is to learn to find joy in our adversity rather than to deny adversity.
:share scriptures
:teach good habits
:teach service
:teach the duty to support and acknowledge women as the find strength in God and are true to themselves.
-What is the capacity of women?
:what power do they have through faith?
:what capacity do they have to act?
:what does it mean that they do not "hold second place"?
:how do we act to avoid treating women as second place members?
(From Teachings of president Hinckley. ).

Bible Lessons

May you be like Ruth and like Esther,
Marry someone of a different race,
All will adore you,
You will be famous,
Everyone will know your face ....
[isn't that the lesson we get from the two books of the Bible named after women?].